I don't want to wait any longer. I will wait, of course, but I want to see SOMETHING happen. This next 4 months cannot go fast enough. I really want to move and start my life. I hope my mother is right. :]
I got a job at Chili's today. It will probably consume the rest of my free time, and I'll probably be tired a lot, but it's money, and that's something I definitely need.
I'll hit 900 hours at school sometime this week, so only 600 left. It's unbelievable to think that I'm over halfway finished. Pretty soon, I'll be in the Senior Studio, woo.
I want God to just tell me things. I hate gut feelings. I'd prefer written letters, saying things like "Work here, move here, date him, handle it this way, etc." Unfortunately, I'll just have to sit back and stop trying to figure my shit out.
The weather is causing me to be in an incredibly good mood. Being at school all the time isn't my cup of tea, but driving home from school with my windows down and sunglasses on makes me forget how annoying it is to be there 40 hours a week.
Oh, I have a few freckles on my shoulders, something I've always wanted & just recently noticed.
Things are looking UP, and I can't wait to see what comes next. :]
4.27.2009
4.11.2009
Weird...
So I read my daily horoscope just for fun, but never pay much attention to it...but a part of the one today caught my eye:
"The career ladder seems to be a lonely place at times today, but that is only because you have lost sight of your true priorities. You got lost in the outcome, in the politics, and have forgotten that the true value is the joy you feel in your work."
It's actually sort of accurate, I've been so caught up in shit at school that I forget how much I love what I'm doing, and what kind of joy it brings me.
I'm off to yet another early Saturday, full of drama & cheapskates. :]
"The career ladder seems to be a lonely place at times today, but that is only because you have lost sight of your true priorities. You got lost in the outcome, in the politics, and have forgotten that the true value is the joy you feel in your work."
It's actually sort of accurate, I've been so caught up in shit at school that I forget how much I love what I'm doing, and what kind of joy it brings me.
I'm off to yet another early Saturday, full of drama & cheapskates. :]
4.05.2009
Traveling Mercies
"And that is why I have stayed so close to mine -- because no matter how bad I am feeling, how lost or lonely or frightened, when I see the faces of the people at my church, and hear their tawny voices, I can always find my way home."
-Anne Lamott
-Anne Lamott
4.03.2009
Foolishness
I'm slowly realizing I have a slight issue when it comes to my career of choice. It is the type of career in which success is almost solely dependent upon the amount of work put into it. Now, I'm not saying I'm not a hard worker but, unlike many of my schoolmates, I have never had to work too hard for anything. I did the bare minimum in high school, and graduated with a 3.8. Struggling for something, or really wanting it and having to work hard to get it are things I've never really encountered. I know that if I decide I'm going to start working harder at this and become successful, I will. It's just the thought of actually putting forth more effort than is absolutely necessary. Frustrating, for sure.
Today Sam had a client that slightly irritated me. Not that this is anything new, but it was more of the type of things she was saying that offended me. She was openly discussing that she met a girl she was interested in, but here's the catch...she met her at church! She was saying the church was non-denominational and accepted her for who she was and would never preach the "condemnation of homosexuals" sermon at her church, because they knew that she was born that way and couldn't help it. You know why sweetheart? Because they're cool and hip and don't want to offend anyone. Who do you think you're kidding? Have you ever read the Bible? Seriously? Now don't get me wrong here, I accept people for who they are and I don't want to come off as a judgmental person, nor is it my place to condemn them, but nothing pisses me off more than when a church makes people think that there are no consequences to their actions. Like Jesus was just a cool hippie that we want to model our lives after, like the Bible is obsolete. I'm not sure how much clearer it needs to be stated than it is in 1 Corinthians 6:9, "Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived; neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor homosexuals," I just hate that there are places out there calling themselves churches and supposedly preaching the "Word of God", but leaving out all of the messy stuff. It's not all about living in peace and drinking wine. I just wish these people would open up their Bibles and read a passage or two once in awhile. And another thing about this situation that bugs me, is when people say "I was born this way, I can't help it." That's the biggest load of bullshit I've ever heard. Everyone is born a certain way, with certain sinful desires or tendencies, that is NO reason for them to just live in a life of sin without trying to change. I was born with a tendency to be lazy, that doesn't mean it's okay for me to do nothing with my life and blame it on the fact that I was made this way and can't help it. That's a cop out that the contemporary church offers people so that they won't leave. Some people have an innate desire to lie, or be gluttonous, that doesn't make the behavior okay, it means that it's a struggle they will have to go through on a daily basis, and hope to overcome. Everyone has different sinful natures with different consequences, but none of them provide a legitimate excuse to not try to conquer them.
I think that's enough for today.
Today Sam had a client that slightly irritated me. Not that this is anything new, but it was more of the type of things she was saying that offended me. She was openly discussing that she met a girl she was interested in, but here's the catch...she met her at church! She was saying the church was non-denominational and accepted her for who she was and would never preach the "condemnation of homosexuals" sermon at her church, because they knew that she was born that way and couldn't help it. You know why sweetheart? Because they're cool and hip and don't want to offend anyone. Who do you think you're kidding? Have you ever read the Bible? Seriously? Now don't get me wrong here, I accept people for who they are and I don't want to come off as a judgmental person, nor is it my place to condemn them, but nothing pisses me off more than when a church makes people think that there are no consequences to their actions. Like Jesus was just a cool hippie that we want to model our lives after, like the Bible is obsolete. I'm not sure how much clearer it needs to be stated than it is in 1 Corinthians 6:9, "Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived; neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor homosexuals," I just hate that there are places out there calling themselves churches and supposedly preaching the "Word of God", but leaving out all of the messy stuff. It's not all about living in peace and drinking wine. I just wish these people would open up their Bibles and read a passage or two once in awhile. And another thing about this situation that bugs me, is when people say "I was born this way, I can't help it." That's the biggest load of bullshit I've ever heard. Everyone is born a certain way, with certain sinful desires or tendencies, that is NO reason for them to just live in a life of sin without trying to change. I was born with a tendency to be lazy, that doesn't mean it's okay for me to do nothing with my life and blame it on the fact that I was made this way and can't help it. That's a cop out that the contemporary church offers people so that they won't leave. Some people have an innate desire to lie, or be gluttonous, that doesn't make the behavior okay, it means that it's a struggle they will have to go through on a daily basis, and hope to overcome. Everyone has different sinful natures with different consequences, but none of them provide a legitimate excuse to not try to conquer them.
I think that's enough for today.
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