A year and a half ago I thought Kyle was crazy when he told me that we needed to grow up...apart from one another. I literally felt as if my world was ending. I couldn't see how I needed to grow up anymore than I had by that point, what did he expect of me? It seemed like my best friend had abandoned me and left me in the cold, like he didn't give a shit about what became of me. I had a mindset that no one understood the agony of what I'd gone through, I was the first person to experience an unexpected break-up. Needless to say, I am well past that point. I am so incredibly glad that he ended things. It hurt a whole lot at the time, more than I let anyone know, but it has made me such a better person. I look back and wonder how in the hell he lasted as long as he did with the person I was. I've been realizing more recently how thankful I am for what he did, I've grown so much since that time. I couldn't see it then, but now I can see that he was very right, and if I could thank him, without it being odd, I would.
On to the rest of my day...I had some pretty amazing compliments today that just boosted my self esteem. Two girls told me I had perfect skin when I was going on about getting some new skincare products, then another girl told me I looked cute anyway I wore my hair -a compliment she gives me every time I do something different- flattering, yet awkward, and then some random strangers at Qdoba & Maggie Moo's told me they loved my hair! :] Little things like that brighten my day.
Now to the not-so-bright part...I found something out today that upset me a whole lot. I was more upset than I've been in awhile, and I talked to Mike about it and got it all out of my system, I feel slightly better, but it still sucks. I did get a huge smile on my face when he said if he was home he'd bring me a bag of gummy worms to cheer me up :] I'm currently talking to Megan about it, which always helps...I'm incredibly blessed to be surrounded with these people.
Heading to bed..I have an appointment for some highlights tomorrow, thanks to Sam for recommending me!
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