boys, boys, boys...

My thoughts are all jumbled so excuse me if none of this makes much sense.

The boy, Evan, I went on the date with, is driving me totally crazy. Not in the good way either. He says he "understands" that I have a lot going on in my life right now and will give me space and then it's like he won't just leave me alone...space isn't texting me every waking second of your life and asking me what I'm thinking in regards to him. Well sir, I'm thinking a whole lot of nothing in regards to you...I have bigger things in my life right now than our one-date-relationship. Plus, he lives nearly 2 hours away, I don't find this to be the good start of a long-term relationship by any means. Call me cynical, but that's how I see it.

On the other hand, I've been hanging out with a guy from Indy that I go to school with. Yes, he's straight. He's absolutely nothing like what I, or anyone else, would picture me with, but he makes me very happy. We make each other laugh. I'm comfortable around him, and that doesn't happen too often. We're nothing serious right now, and that's fine with me, I'm not at a place in my life to be in a serious relationship, and neither is he...so it works pretty perfectly. We see each other when we have the time, but we also both have separate lives. I love that, I've never had that before. Whether it will go somewhere or not, I don't know, but I'm enjoying myself for the time being and I'm not going to try to force anything to happen. It's all out of my control.