I went to Noblesville on Wednesday to see Felicia graduate - and of course it was a great excuse to see everyone at the school that I've missed! While I was down there I went to lunch & dinner with Kelly & Steph, I've missed them so much. In between the 2 meals (it seemed like all we did was eat that day) we went to visit Sam's salon, Cloud 9. It was very nice & surprisingly classy for being located in a strip mall. The salon wasn't necessarily my preference of a place to work, but I would definitely take it over where I work now. Being there made me realize I want to go back. I don't want to work in a tiny little salon in a tiny little town the rest of my life, I've ALWAYS wanted to live/work in a bigger city. Then we found out Korie was doing a styling show at a little boutique in Broad Ripple, but we ended up not going because it was getting late and Steph & I had a drive ahead of us (she to Pendleton and I to Marion). It's moments like that when I despise the fact that I moved, had I not I could've stayed and gone to Korie's show and just driven 15 minutes to go home, as opposed to an hour or so. I'm trying to be patient until it's the right time for me to move, financially speaking. But the patience is getting harder to attain as the days go on. I miss having my own place, and being in an area where my industry is thriving and exciting. There's no excitement or challenge here, and in this environment, I don't do well. I just pray that things take a turn soon.

Change is gonna come..

I've made a conscious decision to live intentionally. I want to befriend people, whether or not I think we have anything in common. I can learn something from everyone. I want to help people, with things big or small. I want to be nice to people. Even if it's just saying things like, "I like your shirt," or, "I appreciate you." I don't say things like that to people enough, especially to the people who are very important to me. I want people to realize that I'm genuine. Yes, I joke often and I'm very sarcastic, but I love people and I care about them. I'm going to make a change. :]

P.S. Watching the show Wretched with Todd Friel makes me want to punch someone, mainly Todd Friel.

Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end..

Heath & Hillary are going to New York this weekend. They're going to celebrate their anniversary, and for Heath to interview at some places for grad school - Princeton, Yale, and Union. The end of his incredible ministry in Huntington is coming fast. I am fully confident that the 509 will go on without him, but it'll be hard for me not having them around if he ends up attending one of these schools. I want the world for him, he's incredibly intelligent and a very hard worker, he deserves it. Even still, I can't help but be a little selfish and want them to stay around here. I haven't been that far away from Heath in years, and going through that again seems scary. I know that God will lead - or keep - him where he is supposed to be, but I'm a worrier. :] I suppose the bright side is that I'll have a place to vacation!

This kind of romance doesn't exist anymore..

Beethoven's 3rd letter to his Immortal Beloved

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved. ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

Are you not only blind, but do you not hear?

I'm very frustrated with people. The past two days I've worked in my Dad's office helping him get caught up on some things. While I actually do love office work, I don't know how much I love the hardcore Republican office talk. I'm sick of hearing those who use public funded programs constantly being bashed. Not that I advocate freeloading by any means, but it's not the child's fault that it's mother is on welfare. So that child shouldn't suffer for the parent's poor choices. As opposed to completely abolishing programs such as welfare, why don't we reform them, and actually run/use them correctly (bizarre thought, I know). And if you're all SO against these programs that help those who are less fortunate than the rest of us, then can you please inform me of where the church is in all of this? Last time I checked, the Samaritan woman wasn't exactly religious, yet that didn't stop Jesus from ministering to her and changing her life. No wonder people don't take Christians seriously...we're greedy and self-indulgent.

Today while I was at work, a woman came in to talk about possibly applying for a job with our company. She expressed that she knew the company was run by Christians, but she herself was not a believer. The company she is currently working for claims to be a group of Christians, but she feels as though everything they do is for the money and recognition (surprise, surprise). She was very clearly a passionate person in regards to helping others. She believed that she & her husband had been helped when they were in a time of need, and owed the same kindness to those who were currently in need. Few times in my life have I met someone so passionate about the needs of others, or about anything worth-while for that matter. Where is this spirit within our church communities? We can spend $9 million on elaborate church buildings while completely ignoring the people in poverty across the street? Sounds like hypocrisy at its finest.

When are we going to stop worrying about our designer suits, trendy purses, and 8 oz. steaks, and look at the people down the street with one decent outfit, feeding their children Ramen for dinner. There is need all around us, it's not just in Africa or China. We send people all over the world to help those in need - not that that's a bad thing - but we completely disregard all of the destitution in our very country and even our own town...and dare I say in our circle of friends. God blessed many of us with more than we need, and what are we doing with it?